My How Things Have Changed

On my 26^th birthday, which was a little over a year ago. I stated “As I go into what I hope is at least the 2nd quarter of my life, I am looking forward to the pain, joy, heartache, love, exhaustion and accomplishments as I move forward with a different set goals. Becoming a licensed counselor is something that I am currently working on and 26 will definitely see it. I also hope that the next chapter of my life brings me a family, a healthier lifestyle, a new city of my choice, a job that I enjoy as much as the one that I currently have, and some leadership opportunities.”

Wow! Boy did I do it. In the last year so many things have transpired, I received my license, I was blessed with my son (4 months tomorrow), I have a new job, and possibly a new city. Wow! However, it did come with a price. Over this last year some of my friendships have taken a hit. Don’t get me wrong I still cherish the friendships but they just aren’t like they were in the past and I’m okay with that. Life Stages. I learned this in school. I am in a different stage of life. I still cherish my friendships and love my friends to death but I get why I can’t be as active in those friendships as I use to be and I want to be sometimes.

Having a new baby is hard. People told me what to expect as far as how to care for baby, baby’s stages and milestones but no one really explained what happens to mommy during the time. Emotional Rollercoaster.  I went from having no kids to having two kids in a matter of months. There were times I felt that it was just me, alone by myself. Even though people were helping and assisting it wasn’t good enough for me.  I started to doubt myself and my abilities as a parent, a partner, a family member, a friend and as an employee. Without the support of my family and friends, I don’t know what I would have done. There were times when I was down and no one knew. However, because those people talked to me and checked in from time to time, they were helpful to me. They encouraged me and put these tiny bugs in my ear that I needed to hear even though they weren’t really aware of it. However, I made it.

This year will be over in a couple of days. This is my first post from the year and I doubt it will be my last. However, I want to end stating that I am blessed. Most people didn’t know what I was going through but they contributed to helping me through. For that I am grateful and blessed to have these type of people in my life. 

With A Sincereheart,
Dreka